Mood Cloud 9
Music Love songlist (Songbird atm)
Andie, Bri, and Ky...Thank you for your words. You guys made me feel like a million bucks!
Its sunday night, and what a crazy night. Carousel is over for the weekend and I'm glad and sad at the same time. Its emotionally exhausting for me (thats an understatement if I ever heard one) and now I have a chance to concentrate on real life. On the other hand, the addictive nature of the Theatah means that I'm going to be going into serious withdrawal in just about 24 hours, and I will be missing everyone like crazy.
On a more serious note, I try to live my life morally, but something happened tonight--something that blew my mind. It may have had something to do with me missing an entrance, or maybe not. Irregardless, I am amazed and elated and guilty and defiant and a whole mix of other emotions. In all probability, this will be common news in the company very soon, but I dont give a goddamn. I got a lecture tonight about it already but 5 minutes later it was out of my mind. What it comes down to is that I wont do anything wrong, BUT I wont stop doing what makes me happy just to suit other peoples sensibilities. I AM old enough to know better, and I WONT go too far, and yes this kind of thing happens occassionally but take your guilt trip and save it for someone who deserves it.
Im not looking for a happy ending, but I am going to keep my options open. And I am happy right fucking now so fuck you if you cant or wont understand it.
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