Radio Free Zion Pwns U

Mood doozy
Music Leave's Eyes "Ocean Way"

So, it happens in April...looks like Julianna (my Beauty) is coming with me which is a huge coincidence but I heard it tonight.

Im too old but this audition is everything I would want.

Las Vegas here I come :)

Oh yeah, Caitlin (Ms Potts) heard me singing tonight and she says she likes my voice so thats a good thing too :)

altogether a very good night

A Book Report on Peter Rabbit?

Mood sleepysleepysleepysleepy

N-dog the flying monkey and I saw 'Youre a Good Man Charlie Brown" tonight. I laughed until my throat hurt. Funny and fun, my friends (and there were a lot of them in it) should be proud. My favorite part was afterward, hanging with Andie, Brit, and Nathan. Im too tired to type more but this was a good, happy night :) .

Nathan and I agree that Andie rocks.

Next time, pull the trigger

Mood so... happy... I just want it all to go away

One thing I admire about Marcus; his ability to brutally, casually squash any hope someone may harbor.

I will be the most insular, private person I know.

Everyone should have a Buttercup

Mood Happy
Music Beauty and the Beast

I love hanging out with my therapist. We talk (gossip) for hours, she crashes out on my couch from where she psychoanalyzes me drowsily. I am relaxed, calm, and cheerful. She is not only an anchor in this increasingly chaotic world, but a strong dose of (much needed) common sense.

All it costs me is some pizza and some cookies and cream (w/ accompanying chocolate syrup) Breyers --which she cant even finish.

hehe

It makes me laugh that she is embarrassed she used to play Dungeons & Dragons and Vampire !!

Im still awake

Mood Weary
Music Eva Cassidy "Songbird"

Dear Diary,

So...

I'm going on my fourth day with a total of 9 hours of sleep. No, I'm not on drugs, I used to do them long ago, but that was then. Now, instead of the induced nervous energy I'm just numb. Whatever, Im no stranger to sleepless nights. I can't help but think that this is unhealthy. Its hard to rest when I cant find any peace inside. "The sleep of the just" is an expression that comes to mind, followed closely by 'No rest for the wicked'. I'm in a tired haze. I have enough clarity of mind to fake it tomorrow though, and I don't have far to drive so thats good at least. Its just that I have developed an unhealthy fear that if I go to sleep, I wont be able to wake up. Odd I know, considering how many years of practice I have. Gotta watch the sleep deprived paranoia.

So...

The Dictionary defines Addiction as:

1. Compulsive physiological and psychological need for a habit-forming substance

or

2.The condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or or involved in something

That comment is not as random as it appears.

So...

All I need is time I think, to get myself together, to get my life in order. All we, as human beings, really have in life is time. We spend it on things like school, careers, families, hobbies. We try to attach a numeric value to it with a paycheck. Its all the same though, no matter how much you make. And if you are gifted it, its going to keep moving on you. The days will keep coming, the seasons keep changing. Why then do I feel like Time is slipping, like sand, through my fingers?

Im so tired now that I shouldnt have a problem falling asleep tonight. Just gotta make it through one more day.

I should have listened to this song when I was trying to go to sleep last night. Its peaceful, soothing, it calms my restlessness.

I could have slept to this.

Stressed

Mood Stressed

God, how did I ever manage to get myself into this mess. I swear to God, if I get out of this I'm going to dance a jig.

I am a man who has made many bad choices in his life.

I did the right thing

Mood Serene
Music Eddie Rabbit "I love a rainy night"

Ok, people learn from past mistakes.

I talked to her tonight, She says she misses me, being held by me...

That way lies heartbreak, I know this.

I am not going to jeapordize our new friendship. Last time hurt me, but I'm better now.

If you love someone, it doesnt have to be 'in that way'.

I can be strong...

Numa Numa?

Mood Amused
Music Numa Numa

Teh Buttercup sent me what has got to be the happiest most awesome things Ive seen all year.

this made my day

Dont be sad ;)